My morning started with a heated CorePower Yoga class at 6:30 a.m.. This followed my Free Vinyasa class with fellow lulus & yogis last night. Both instructors began with this thought, “Think about your practice; focus on a theme; what do you want to accomplish?”
As my mind’s default is to go 100 miles per minute – blogs to read! emails to respond to! what apartment are we seeing today? were utilities included?! what’s my work schedule for Sunday? 7 days until the marathon!!!! – this doesn’t come easy.
Choosing to focus, alone, is a challenge. Choosing to focus on a theme has my brain cells engaged and shaking like that last downward dog has your shoulders burning. Block. Out. All. Distractions. POSE, BREATHE. Repeat.
Last night, as a group, we chose “Community” & “Radical Self Acceptance”. While I could go on a whole page about how amazing that class was, this morning’s was entirely different. I chose, again, to zero in on Acceptance.
A mere seven months ago, I was faced with the Manic-madness that sometimes consumes a Taper period. I wasn’t convinced I had adequately prepared for 26.2 miles; I wasn’t ready to handle what might happen during that last 10K; I wasn’t excited to find out if I had it in me.
“Last week, I’m not sure where I went, but I do know that my mind was replaced with a Manic-Taper-er. Seriously, she was nuts. She had no running-mojo, absolutely zero motivation for every run last week.”
Vivid memories of that self-doubt and absence of acceptance have been efficiently converted into the Fuel of this training cycle. Clearly, I did survive. This time around, I know I’ll survive again. I accepted that my training methods weren’t perfect, and used that to make changes for round #2.
One of the biggest changes: using YOGA. I’m not sure where I’d be right now without that reflection, ridiculous stretches, sweaty downward dogs or burning chair poses. The Yogis? They’ve captured that manic-taperer; I happily handed her over.
Reflecting on this cycle has been entirely different; I’ve had hard long runs, but I’ve had more great ones. I’m happy to accept where my training has taken me and these muscles. I’m happy to accept the challenge of a Goal time, and will be fine accepting if I don’t hit it on the head. The BIG goal comes next Fall – this is just laying the groundwork.
I’ll accept the lessons I’ve taught myself; and accept the progress I’ve made (and hope to continue) as I cross the next Finish Line!
GOOD LUCK to all you Chicago & Portland Marathon runners this weekend!!!
Accept what your training has taught you, and where you are now. Run STRONG! 🙂